Expectation to myself

It's been so long since i really write blogs about myself. Time flies, it already almost 2 months since I took my degree year 1 results. I still can remember how scare I am while I'm on the way to college. When I'm driving my way up from Johor, my hands were trembling all the way. Results delayed almost 2 weeks, and I keep scaring myself, telling myself that sure alot of people failed, so the markers are remarking our paper. 

Urmmm, my papers.

When I reached college, it was almost 3pm. I went to 2nd floor, and saw some students were in the room. Some were taking their results, and some are filling up the resit form. I started to comfort myself, as I know my standard of writing those law stuff are pretty bad. I told the people in charge my name, and she started to find my certificate among a pile of cert. My heart almost stop when she stops and staring at the cert, and I and pretty sure that is my certificate. Luckily, the first word I heard is 'congratulations'. 

Yay, tears almost burst out, I can't imagine how happy I am at that moment. I called my mom, and she was shocked as my results are still considered not bad. She told me that she just hope that I can pass all the subject and proceed to year 2. Yes, lower expectation to me as usual, but always get surprised haha. 

Now, it's November. 2 months had passed. Bye Criminal law, Public Law, Common Law and Contract. Say hi to Land Law, Company Law, Law of Tort and Law of Evidence. I thought year 1 are hard, but now I realize year 2 are killing me. 

'Simple english, combine jadi alien.' Yes, my definition of alienable. lol

Few more months and I'm gonna finish year 2, and prepared myself to UK. sob* Nothing much to worry, I know that the only think I can do for myself is to work hard. Nobody will help you if you don't even bother to help yourself. So, everybody making new wishes for new year, and I'm gonna make new wishes for my year 2. 

1. Good time management

I'm lazy. like seriously lazy. I hope that I can make myself study each and everyday, and get good results to proceed to my dream university.

2. Save more money

Too many things in my to-buy list, but too less money in my pocket. Hope I can reduce my desire and save more money to UK. Good food everyday are important, I hope i can still get good food while in UK.

3. Always stay positive

I will sometimes filled with negativity, and always blame people when I did wrong. Hopefully I can change this attitude, be more mature.

4. Able to focus

I found out myself are more difficult to focus on whatever I do. So I hope that I can be more focus in the future. F O C U S

5. No more excuses
People always tend to give alot of excuses to people and to themselves. I were in that too and get myself alot of troubles. Now, I wish I can change this a become a better person. 

(to be continue...)